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  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: City Lights - Blackmill
  • Reading: Textbooks
  • Drinking: Tumeric and Green blendTea
Most of my journals are in my gallery, you see... Many of my poems are based in reality, or at least, whatever fucked up version of it I live in.

I have had ups and downs like anyone. Some downs harder than others, some downs cannot be countered by other ups. Sometimes my "incredibly over-reactive" paranoias turned out to be true, and on one hand, I WAS RIGHT, on the other, I wanted to be wrong.

I am still the angsty fuckbucket you know and love.

Feel free to leave comments, ask questions of me on journals or pm, or just chat. IDK. I'm on every couple of weeks I guess. Whenever the mood strikes.

I kind of want to publish a book of poetry... I'm like a girl version of Bukowski, anyway, so maybe it wouldn't do terrible?

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  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: City Lights - Blackmill
  • Reading: Textbooks
  • Drinking: Tumeric and Green blendTea
Most of my journals are in my gallery, you see... Many of my poems are based in reality, or at least, whatever fucked up version of it I live in.

I have had ups and downs like anyone. Some downs harder than others, some downs cannot be countered by other ups. Sometimes my "incredibly over-reactive" paranoias turned out to be true, and on one hand, I WAS RIGHT, on the other, I wanted to be wrong.

I am still the angsty fuckbucket you know and love.

Feel free to leave comments, ask questions of me on journals or pm, or just chat. IDK. I'm on every couple of weeks I guess. Whenever the mood strikes.

I kind of want to publish a book of poetry... I'm like a girl version of Bukowski, anyway, so maybe it wouldn't do terrible?
The best thing I ever wrote



I stared
and
I
somehow
knew

It would scare
someone

It would scar
someone

To know the
depths of me
is
a
nightmare



Even I don't want to know
It was deleted.
Sometimes my own poetry upsets me.

Even though it is true, it is raw feelings, it is something that has meaning to me...

I wonder if I will ever be able to look into my own self and accept what I find?
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I look good in this.
My hair looks fine.
It won't be that hard to lose weight.
It's just a few pounds.
You didn't need to change yourself anyway.

It's just a few dollars.
There's no reason to worry so much.
Someone will help me if I'm really in trouble.
I didn't need to eat today.
You didn't need it anyway.

She loves me.
He loves me.
They all love me.
No one would ever want to hurt me.
They didn't mean that much to me anyway.

It doesn't hurt that bad.
I'm fine, really.
I'll feel better soon.
It's nothing serious, right...?
You didn't need medical treatment anyway.

I can get things done tomorrow.
I'm just feeling a little unmotivated today.
I haven't thought about cutting myself in years.
It's just me being stupid and useless.
You aren't mentally ill anyway.
I ask her to pass me the hemlock
and she does because she knows
she cannot stop me from drinking it


I ask her to hold me
and she does because she knows
within her arms is the only safe place


I ask her to forgive me
and she does because she knows
I don't burden her to hurt her


I ask her to love me
and she does because she knows
I love her for she is my salvation

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DusktheDemon
Angsty writer is angsty.
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Personal Quote: "Even if all good things come to an end, I desire to experience all of them."
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My-Sword-is-Bigger Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist

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Hello (and sorry for advertising) ^^; Seeing as you're a writer, I thought you might be interested in my group Try-Your-Page and it's where you post the first page (or any excerpt) of a story/novel and see if others would turn the page. Please join if you're looking for critique or just something to read. :) The rules are that you have to comment on others' works in order to submit, so there's a high chance you DO get feedback

 

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CnHGirl Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:rose:Thanks for joining :iconwrite-to-live:, Dusk!:rose:
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obliviousrights Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2011
Well, I'm closing the Special Academy.
There's nothing to do in that group, too much work as it is.
I'm not going to have you control, but I'm just going to close it.
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DusktheDemon Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
you can't close it without control, duh.

And how is it too much work? You haven't done anything on it. I've been the only one to work on ANYTHING for the group.
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